Friday, November 22, 2013

Dance On Your Own Grave

My friend, Kitty posted on her Facebook: Dance on your grave:  The alternative to accepting the process (of life, love, art) is a living death, where the fear of the thing we avoid penetrates every microcosmic aspect of the thing we try to hold on to. Impermanence is magic.

Little did she know it was exactly what I was doing!  I entered the Masonic Temple for the first time in long memory.  As I entered the hall that rivaled a fancy hotel or synagogue, I was overwhelmed by the long since gone that recognized me as my father's child. My Daddy, a man who was honored by the Masons. I remember helping him prepare his Prince Hall speech for if memory serves, Prince Hall Day. I was so proud as he spoke! My Daddy the handsome, sharp dressed orator. 

Since that time the same Christians that had Masons & Easter Stars as highly coveted organizations now cried sacrilege & rarely even speak of them. Or the people that studied, worked & supported what they were taught was a noble endeavor. 

As I took in the marble floors, grand staircase and furnishings I set my intention to dance down oppression, division, discord, dis-ease, fear and lack. In my Daddy's name I raised my hands above & gave thanks for the man that he is.  I gave thanks for his complete recovery and longevity. Flashes of favorite moments with him came, words of warning and wisdom flowed past. The African drums began to pound as another song was included in the mix. I saw my ancestors standing looking across a great area of green spotted with jungle life. They laughed at the hypocrisy of our spiritual practices being stolen & synchrotised. They showed me symbols and sigils - secret meanings. And I new there was no malice. There was no evil agenda. There was only ignorance and fear, from the same hypocrisy that took my roots was now rewriting some of their own history and traditions. 

I spun for Africa, I twirled for the US. I slowed to honor and acknowledge then added speed as I went into a praise dance. I praised for wellness, wholeness, longevity, peace, overstanding, compassion. I praised for my family & friends. I praised for my body which serves me well. I praised for my gifts & manifestations. I danced with Freedom.

Then in a state of ecstatic bliss I knelt down and listened. I listened to the music. I heard the breath of those around me and the whispers as the Divine met me in stillness to share all knowing.

So, I danced on my own grave against the fear of loosing those I love, fear of creating what I want, fear of the Christian hell. I danced on my grave and became magik~

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Seshat: Goddess of CANNABIS, Wisdom, Knowledge and Writing










"You don't have to like the art you create. The point is how it makes you feel."  

I heard whispered in the breeze.

She told me

"The process must be embraced and allowed to flow freely.  It has to be allowed to go where it must.  Be that place dark or bright.


When you see the creation, greet it.  Allow it to be without judgement.  Play with your muse.  Enjoy her dance.  Romance her to the pinnacle of her desire."

At this point satisfied completion.
Sweet creation.  The face of the DIVINE you have.  Take me to your breast where love is  found and felt. 

Oh Great Mother of the House of Books, 
Lady of Mathematics, 
Mistress of the House of Architects,
Keeper of Years,
Thank you for mathematical and notational overstanding. 



She was seen as a scribe and record keeper.  Seshat an Ancient Egyptian Goddess of writing, accounting, architecture, historical records, and measurement.   She kept records for the gods counting the Pharaohs time remaining on Earth.  

Seshat was also a magician.  She carried a wand with a seven pointed plant. This star is the symbol of the source of all consciousness and creativity.  Worn over her head.  I perceive it is where the light bulb/bright idea came from.  The interesting thing is that plant is a cannabis leaf. The horns of Thoth over the leaf represent wisdom flowing down.  Carl sagan; Mr. X wrote in his book published in 1969 Marijuana Reconsidered wrote:

"I do not consider myself a religious person in the usual sense, but there is a religious aspect to some highs. The heightened sensitivity in all areas gives me a feeling of communion with my surroundings, both animate and inanimate…Many but not all my cannabis trips have somewhere in them a symbolism significant to me…a kind of mandala embossed on the high. Free-associating to this mandala, both visually and as plays on words, has produced a very rich array of insights.”

This Moon Goddess worked along side her masculine consort Thoth.  With her cosmic intuition she created writing which he then taught man! Do not mistake her for her other counterparts seen holding tablets. For wise Seshat is the only one depicted in the actual creation process of writing.  

Look to her for inspiration, comprehension, retention, record keeping, writing, reading and building.  

Deep Breath    --- INHALE --- Peace

Cleansing Release     ---EXHALE --- Thank you creator for the gift

Deep Breath     --- INHALE --- Gratitude

Cleansing Release     --- EXHALE --- Thank you Seshat & Mother Earth for the 
                                                   cultivation

Deep Breath     --- INHALE --- Love

Cleansing Release     --- EXHALE ---Thank you flora for your Essence

Deep Breath     ---INHALE --- I bind discord, distrust and dissatisfaction

Cleansing Release     ---EXHALE --- I receive HARMONY, LOVE and JOY

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Cathy Pagano's New Moon in Leo

As I gain more knowledge of all things astrological, I am grateful to people like Cathy Pagano who break it down sweetly!  I've highlighted my favorite parts.
Nemaste


Astrology is a helpful tool for understanding the evolution of Life, both individually and collectively.  It helps us translate and read the cosmic story of Life reflected in the heavens.   And like any storyteller, its purpose is to awaken something already within the listener, something that resonates as true.  A true story opens up the heart, where Wisdom lies.  A true story moves us to right action.

Cosmically, we are just at the beginning of a new age (and you can see how the old patriarchy is holding on for dear life!) which we hope (along with the hippies from the 60s) will embody the belief that ‘all you need is love’.  This new Age of Aquarius will be one where women and men are equal and where we use both sides of the brain, making us Wise instead of only intelligent.  

This is the mythic, cosmic story that is shaping our world and our lives. But we are at a point in the story where things could go either way, down to destruction or onward to new life.  Will Lessa bring back the ancient dragonriders to help save Pern?  Will we be able to save our Earth, clean up our air, water and soil?  With our growing population, will it be possible to create a ‘Heaven on Earth’?  I believe the cosmic story says we can do it; that is if we share our resources equitably and move beyond the ideas of patriarchy and consumerism.

This evolutionary cycle started in the 60s with the Pluto/Uranus conjunction in Virgo opposite Saturn in Pisces.  It was a wild, unpredictable time, a new birth for humanity, a time when Time Magazine asked, “Is God Dead?” (Saturn in Pisces questioning the long-ruling Hebraic father god of Western religions and his rules) and young people rejected their parents patriarchal rules (Pluto/Uranus in Virgo).  Now that we have arrived at the first square between these two planetary archetypes, we are being challenged to take individual action (Uranus in Aries) to get rid of outworn and repressive systems and rules (Pluto in Capricorn).  As anyone can see, the issues and events of the 60s are continuing to shape this next step in the evolution of human consciousness. 

However, instead of our parents trying to shape us to patriarchal expectations, today’s issues involve our governments and corporations taking away our rights and freedoms, because they are the patriarchy!  It’s time to reject this form of society and its values.  It’s time to recreate a more sustainable, equitable, creative society.  A Love-based culture!  That’s what the new revolutionary and evolutionary cosmic cycle we’re in is leading us to— a heart-centered consciousness that can create a better life for everyone, including the Earth.

While Astrology is very logical and mathematical in its calculations, astrologers also use our intuitions and imaginations in reading the cosmic story.  That’s the part which patriarchal thinking rejects—the imaginative meaning of life.  !Patriarchy is so flat-earth!  It’s my way or the highway view of life is deadening to real creativity and freedom.  Just because our patriarchal culture believes that a symbolic, mystical understanding of Life is irrational and therefore suspect, it does not mean that this belief is the Truth.   Just as patriarchy has relegated women to second-class citizenship, it has also decreed that the psychological functions of feeling and intuition (which give rise to that symbolic understanding of Life) are irrelevant to any decision-making we do personally or collectively.  Along with women being enslaved, raped and considered irrelevant, our right-brain imagination has been enslaved, abused and made irrelevant, except when it is used to manipulate people when there is money to be made or fear to create. 

Leo, the King and Queen of the Zodiac
                                              Sekhmet by Katlyn Breene

It’s time to change that!  We were created as women & men, along with being given a right & left brain to work with, and it’s time to explore how these two different aspects of our humanity were meant to work together, both within and without.  I know I understand an issue and make better decisions when I use my imagination as well as my intellect, my senses as well as my feelings.  My life develops out of my wholeness, beginning in my soul and partnered by my self-awareness. This kind of wisdom takes a commitment to know yourself, which takes time and courage and humility, but is worth the wisdom and peace you gain.  And wisdom increases when I relate to other people who think and imagine in their own unique ways.

The sign of Leo is all about the process of becoming a unique, one-of-a-kind individual who has taken the time to know yourself.  To know yourself as a whole Woman, a whole Man, a whole Brain.  It is the archetypal power that patriarchy has misused and abused by establishing kings and presidents and CEOs, because Leo is meant to imply personal sovereignty, not state or corporate sovereignty over others.   Each Lioness is Queen of the jungle, just as her partner Lion is King.  Leo wants each of us to assume the responsibility of becoming the author of our own lives.  Until we do that, we won’t be able to create the Aquarian vision of equality and freedom that will be the foundation stone of this next age, a vision of sacred partnership between women and men instead of a patriarchal hierarchy based on domination and violence.

Ase!

But don’t forget the other side of Leo, the playful, loving generous heart we all had as children.  Leo is all about self-confidence, and even if you have to fake it (Leo is an actor), do it during Leo!  We need that self-confidence to ride the waves of the continuing revolution, which should start to heat up in the US next year when our ‘4th of July’ national Sun at 14* Cancer becomes part of the Uranus/ Pluto square.

The Sabian symbol for the Sun and Moon at 15* Leo is:  A loud and colorful circus parade snakes through city streets.  Something out of the ordinary is happening in the city—in our collective consciousness.  This celestial circus parade gives us a glimpse of the mysteries and delights awaiting us when we go in The Big Top.  Everyone in the parade is unique and different, a mystery of talents that will surprise and entertain us.  Parades always draw large cheering crowds, encouraging people to partake in fun and enchantment.  It is all about the Theatre of the Mind—that Leo sense of drama and theatricality that tells a story.  We need to see our lives in terms of story to understand where we are going.  Instead of falling into patriarchy’s story of partisan bickering, let’s open our imaginations and step into a new story of celebration and mystery.  There is so much creativity within each one of us, and collectively, we can be unstoppable in our determination to change.  So leave despair behind and see the possibilities!  Change your story!

This New Moon is a time to plant seeds of self-confidence, love and self-expression.  It is especially blessed because it occurs at 15* Leo, a power gate which is celebrated as Lammas or Lughnasadh .  There are four cross-quarter days in the Wheel of the Year which correspond to the 15* critical degrees in the signs of Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius. These points are known as Avatar Points. They are considered to be degrees where important spiritual influences enter the Earth plane and our lives. Planets moving across these Avatar Points will trigger the release of these influences.  So this New Moon, take time to meditate and open yourself to spiritual guidance. 

This New Moon is embraced and challenged by the feminine asteroids. Vesta and Ceres in Leo add a sense of self-possession (Vesta) and nurturing (Ceres) to the seeds we plant this New Moon.   Juno in Aquarius opposes the New Moon, demanding equal rights between partners.  And Pallas adds her wisdom and intelligence to Jupiter’s meeting with Pluto, so we have a better chance of mediating these two powerful energies.     

August Influences

As we move into August, the summer’s grand water trine is still active, with Jupiter in Cancer anchoring in the third leg of the triangle along with Neptune in Pisces and Saturn in Scorpio.  Jupiter in Cancer expands our faith in our emotional body’s ability to tell us what we need.  Jupiter, who was a great lover of women, opens us to the feminine aspects of life, helping us honor our feelings, our intuitions, and our sense of what nurtures and sustains us and those we love.  Along with Neptune in Pisces’ gift of empathy and Saturn in Scorpio’s demand for personal accountability, Jupiter’s expansive nature helps us understand that the whole world is our family!   So play fair with everyone you meet!
Jupiter is also involved in the ongoing Uranus in Aries/ Pluto in Capricorn square.  He’s a busy archetype!  While the water trine calls on his blessings, the evolutionary square, with Jupiter opposing Pluto on August 7th for the first of three oppositions, and Jupiter squaring Uranus on August 21 for the first of three squares, will call upon his beliefs and sense of values to do the right thing.  Jupiter was the King of the Gods, and it was his responsibility to mediate between the various powers of Olympus.  With his involvement in this transformative planetary square, he can either bring up even more intolerant beliefs or more positively, get us to look at our beliefs and ask ourselves if they serve Life.   For in this transformative time, we all must become servants of Life.

The Pluto in Capricorn/ Jupiter in Cancer opposition occurs on the day after this New Moon.   It seems we will be re-tuning our subtle bodies to a higher vibration—or at least a more inclusive, balanced one.

The Sabian symbol for Pluto at 10* Capricorn is: On a sailboat, sailors are feeding a tame albatross.  An albatross symbolically implies someone is carrying an emotional burden of some kind.  For sailors to feed an albatross implies that if we make friends with our emotional bodies—rather than shun them—we can be relieved of the burden of old emotional wounds. It implies compassion for ourselves and others.  Let go of those old emotions, they are no longer needed for self-protection.  

The Sabian symbol for Jupiter at 10* Cancer is: A large diamond in the first stages of the cutting process.  This is what the Taoists call ‘the diamond body’, the subtle body of the chakra systems.  Jupiter is re-tuning our bodies at the cellular, subtle levels.  Work with him to enhance the changes.






http://www.wisdom-of-astrology.com/astrostarsarticles/the-cosmic-story-leo-new-moon-2013

Saturday, July 20, 2013

It's On You


If I stand tall & proud,
You feel intimidated & want to take me down
It's on you.

If my swag, my curves, my style
titilates or titivates
It's on you.

If you are socially awkward
with an absentee or cold mother
It's on you!

I WILL WALK TALL!
I WILL WALK PROUD!
I WILL OWN MY SACRED SEXUALITY!
I WILL SHARE OR DENY USE OF MY MIND, BODY & SOUL AT MY DISCRETION!

You think I'm a bitch-It's on you.
You think I'm a whore-It's on you.
You cant get none-it's on you.
You feel small & powerless- it's on you.

Your intimidation doesn't scare me.
Your words don't phase me.
Your fists don't break me.
AND YOUR DICK DON'T MAKE ME!

#1billionrising Rise Strike Dance Vday Event






Sunday, July 14, 2013

INCIDENT *share your stories, add to the dialogue please

I by no means suggest that there is a single demographic that has NOT experienced racism, sexism, ageism or any number of other isms. When we are too emotional to speak respectfully, too closed to have empathy, too hurt to be accepting of a new way of being- - no matter how distasteful it may be we have to acknowledge it is happening widespread and across the board. 

The most upsetting thing is if they allow it to happen to their children they'll allow it to happen to other  children. They are all our children.

In my attempts to pour light over the shock I needed to have real talk about what has happened so that we can start creating a better way.  This case is about child abuse, stalking laws, stand your ground, gun legislature, where should state and federal laws cross, race relations, vigilantism and profiling. All areas where you need to be a bad guy to either be protected or avoid prosecution.




and I mean it from the bottom of my hearrrrrrrt 
to tune of I Just Called to Say I love You in my best Stevie Wonder


My mother's voice distant, getting louder like floating on a breeze.  The sound of my bedroom door being flung open roused me out of my slumber.  I was excited to know I would be having use of the family car! I was 16 with very protective parents.  This opportunity was to pick up my older sister from the local grocery store.  Her shift ended after the store closed and her nightly duties completed to her supervisors approval.  This evening it was some time before 11pm.

This was actually early for her.  I threw on jeans under my gown. It was warm with a clear starry sky.  I wrapped a sweatshirt around my shoulders and turned the car off.  The 7 minute drive was too quick and I was considering circling the block. Until I heard my sister's voice in my mind, "Where da shit you been, I already told yo ass don't have me waitin!"  I thought better of trying to get her to let us take the long way home.

I entered the store like I had literally hundreds of times before. One of the cashiers that knew us told me she was in the back clocking out.We talked about the upcoming game and how one of my favorite snacks was on sale.  After a few minutes I headed in the direction of my bedtime snack.  Cakes supplies were on the back side of the toy isle. As I walked down I noticed a cheap grocery store plastic figurine laying on the floor.  I instinctively picked it up and sat it on the toy shelf.  I continued to the butterscotch morsels. Grabbed a bag and turned to head back to the register already knowing it's not wise to make Tista wait.

I was approaching the counter when I noticed an odd look on her face. I turned to look where she was looking and saw a man running towards me. I knew who he was. He should've known who I was. I just knew I was being attacked. My reaction was to retreat as I turned to run away he grabbed me yelling, 'Whadya hide in your pants?'  He went on to say he saw me pick up something on isle whatever. Before I could respond he grabbed my gown and lifted it up to my breasts. In the front of the store, with witnesses, before closing; one of the owners of the store exposed my body, questioned me, cursed at me and accused me of stealing something I wouldn't want to steal even if I didn't have the $1.99 to buy it.

All I can say is I was given a written apology.  I don't remember his words, the message I will never forget;
you be it your femaleness, your blackness or both don't warrant basic respect and courtesy.


Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Trans-generational Clearing Day 5: Relinquishment Decree

**Giving honor to my dear teacher and friend Catalena Shepard.  She taught me to love my shit, honor my ancestors and empowered me to do my first clearing.  It is because of her I continue to stand in the gap for past/present/future family members.**

Supplies:
candle(s)                  matches/lighter
paper                             bag/box/container
writing utensil            flowing clean natural water source


Begin with whatever spiritual practice you do before working.  I smudge myself. I root/ground/clear/shield. I then light candles. (See:  http://trance4aum.blogspot.com/2013/05/trans-generational-clearing-day-2-safety.html  for more details)  
**use the power of silence: DO NOT DISCUSS** 




Mind:

Read the below decree silently allowing each phrase to resonate.

Body:

Surrender all angst, stress and former agreements that no longer serve you.
Take a piece of paper and write the decree below in script.  
Sign and date.

Spirit:

Read aloud your hand scripted Relinquishment Decree. 
When read, set on fire, allowing ashes to fall into cup/bag/box.
Give thanks, take ashes to clean flowing stream/beach and release ashes.


Relinquishment Decree
I your name here  call in the name of love my entire ancestral lineage.
I now lovingly release all manner of sexual dysfunction through all generations past, present and future, known and unknown to me.

I bind harmful mental and emotional manipulation, all forms of fear of intimacy, frigidity and the spirit of sexual abuse.

I loose juiciness, healthy lust, sensuality, safety, seduction and passion.
I attract them into my life in healthy ways.

I bind negative body image, fear of abandonment, excessive rebellion and/or 
dependency.

I loose true connection, balance and respect.  I attract only those that
can be co-creators of peace in my world.

I bind any form of unwanted violence between a man and a woman, a woman and a woman or a man and a man.

I loose harmonious conversation and deed. 
I attract spirits that respect my mind, body and spirit to me NOW.

I now free myself from any soul ties pat, present of  future; created by
me or others allowing security, allowing for healthy, loving
relationships with my primary partner (self) and others.

I allow myself to be open.
I allow myself to receive.
 I am appreciative.
I am without judgement.





Disclaimer:  The rituals, affirmations, prayers, exercises are based on my experiments.  Some were given under DIVINE Unction others were taught to me.  By all means in your practice, do as Spirit leads you. 


Thursday, May 23, 2013

Trans-Generational Clearing Day 4: Surrender

surrender v. 
To relinquish possession or control of to another because of demand or compulsion.
To give up in favor of another.



Surrender is an important part of your healing and the juiciness of your future erotic growth.  Many women have difficult or no orgasms.  There is a direct correlation to what goes on in the brain, our most powerful sexual tool, and sexual gratification.  

We begin by surrendering things that would impede our minds.  It's far more challenging to NOT think unhealthy thoughts than it is to allow love and gratitude free reign.  Some of us have a lack of body acceptance.  Others have family baggage. There are many stressors that we wrestle with to no fruitful end.  Those things not only snuff our libidos but it manifests in all kinds of physical maladies.

Mind:

Allow each body discontent, self limiting habit or source of discord.  Don't force it. Just allow.
As they arise know that your desire is to love. within this love is the ability to create.  As our part in co-creating, even things we wish to avoid, we must surrender. 

Body:

As they flow in, allow them for two breathes and on the exhale surrender it.
Feel it melt and drip off of you into the Earth.

Spirit:

Meditation

I am who I am.
I am that I am.

I move in complete cooperation with harmonious vibration
I visibly witness favor.

I operate as a clear authentic vessel.
I relinquish all that no longer serves me.
I embrace and become all I will to be.


Disclaimer:  The rituals, affirmations, prayers, exercises are based on my experiments.  Some were given under DIVINE Unction others were taught to me.  By all means in your practice, do as Spirit leads you. 

Trans-generational Clearing Day 3: Gratitude

Mind: 

Give thanks to each body part, individually.
Say, "Thank you hair." (or scalp for folicly challenged)
Pause to feel being both the giver and receiver.

Body: 

Stretch with your hands way over your head. Get on the tips of your toes as you reach for the sky
As you visualize your breath work focus on feeling the energy flowing through your body. Bring your arms down slowly. As you bring them down - with toes pointing out bend your knees to a squat.  Feel your pelvis open up.  Feel exchange Earth energy for that which flows from the most sacred place, Repeat for desired length. 


Spirit:
Today is a day for gratitude. Surrender to the knowing that everything is as it should be. Go on a gratitude frenzy! See how many times and ways you can say, "Thank you."



Disclaimer:  The rituals, affirmations, prayers, exercises are based on my experiments.  Some were given under DIVINE Unction others were taught to me.  By all means in your practice, do as Spirit leads you. 

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Trans-generational Clearing: Day 2 Safety



The first stop on this journey to our succulent wombin is preparing a space of safety.  Many of us have blocks that keep us from being vulnerable and having intimacy. Our past experiences have formed agreements; like all men are dogs.  For me I was told 'You're not the marrying kind'.  I didn't know specifically what that meant but I knew enough to make me feel a sense of inadequacy. There began my search for understanding about relationships, intimacy and sex.

If you examine past negative relationship experiences you'll discover in most cases that a boundary was breached that caused the discord.  This breach isn't limited to infidelity either.  If you were expecting your significant other (s/o) to assist in household duties and they are messy, that is a breach.  Even if the agreement wasn't established it still seems like a betrayal. If we talk about it, establish boundaries, with patience and kindness it creates safety. Even with my little pup Therman Russell Obama of the DC Obamas;
when I leave him I look him in the eyes and say, "I will be gone for a couple of hours. I will be back for you and you will be safe." It's a great comfort to both of us. We both move forward feeling safe and secure.

This is what you are establishing for yourself, a place of  safety.  

Boundaries

Boundaries are very subjective. What feels good or bad and what's a turn on or off - is fluid from person to person and experience to experience.  So, it's fine to amend these boundaries as need be.  We must be able to express these boundaries and feel comfort in knowing they will be respected.

We'll continue with more boundary dialogue as we go. For now, let's just be aware of times we felt completely safe and free.  Then about times when we felt our boundaries weren't respected.  This violation could be from any type of relationship.  It doesn't need to be anything major either.  I went away for the Summer. I had a beautiful doll with jointed wrists. I left her behind for her safety, because I knew I would be with mostly boys. While I was away a female cousin snapped Taylor's (doll's name) hand off!  A boundary was crossed and for years later I kept a close eye on my belongings.  I became afraid to loan things and distrusting causing me to be stingy with things I cared for.  In hind sight it seems so petty but not so.  We are who we are because of our experiences  They mold us into reflections of the way we see the world and the way it's treated us.  If I had been honest and talked about my feelings <sad,disappointment,loss> regardless about what I perceived others would think or what they actually would think I would have nipped these self limiting agreement before it ended where it did. Which was until recently, me being unable to keep things that were flawed. It was more about my feelings about myself than the item's lack of perfection.

We each have a right to want boundaries, express them and demand that they be respected.

Intentions

In sacred work we create boundaries by setting intentions and by rooting, grounding, centering and shielding. When you set intentions you are stating clearly and briefly what you hope to attain. Like boundaries your intention is personal.  Just remember to be as clear as possible. If you write them , write them in script as it makes each letter a powerful glyph.


Rooting/Grounding/Centering/Shielding

To expand on our breath work we want to shift our energy.  Grounding and rooting are terms that are seen as the same thing and often one or the other is used by itself.  I use both.  As I do rhythmic breath I visualize and sense the energy coming down from Divine Love into my crown chakra at the top of my head.  It is a white light that travels down each chakra then splits, traveling down each leg.  When the energy reaches my feet it creates capillaries of light that anchor me, root me to Gaia, mother Earth.  I feel her strength and stability under my feet.  I feel stable because the capillaries are solid roots she holds onto.  I won't fall.

I inhale a deep cleansing breath and release it in a slow deliberate exhale.  This time the Light of Love doesn't go down each leg.  It stays in my root chakra, in my pelvis.  This is where sexual energy is housed.  This powerful energy can blow a circuit if you're not careful. That is why this visualization is what I call grounding. I see lightning leaving my body between my legs and contacting the ground.

Inhale again and I visualize and feel myself floating off the ground like a balloon.  I have nothing to fear, the chords from my rooting and grounding keeps me tethered to terra firma and so I just enjoy the gentle sway of the breeze from the sky. I call this being centered. We are in the ether between land and sky.

This energy/Divine light/Love is traveling through my chakras I see myself floating. Kept from floating away by the roots under my feet and the the arc that is grounding me. I begin to see the energy cycling back up through my chakras now and like a great fountain spraying out of the top of my head.  This great white light sprays around me creating a permeable bubble.  This bubble is strong and nothing may enter unless I choose to reach out and pull it inside with me.  I am safe.

Day 2 Practice

Mind:
Follow my visualizations above or create your own. The point is to feel safe. In biblical terms it's
called a "hedge of protection".  I often place a hedge up too. Especially when someone I care
about that has asked for my assistance. I visualize a wide, tall, thickly grown hedge like one found in a maze.

Body:
Stretch with your hands way over your head. Get on the tips of your toes as you reach for the sky
As you visualize your breath work focus on feeling the energy flowing through your body. It may feel like a warm liquid or electrical heat.  See and feel as it travel to Earth and back up to creating your bubble.

Spirit:
On the inhale as you see and feel the energy leaving your feet creating roots say,
I am rooted in love.
On next inhale see and feel energy leaving root chakra connecting to Earth say,
I am grounded in love.
Exhale feel and see energy as a flowing current that pushes you into the sky. Say,
I am centered in gratitude.
Exhale feel and see yourself come to a place of floating. Repeat,
I am centered in gratitude.
Inhale love. Exhale gratitude. Do this until you feel the energy flowing out of your hear. Say,
I am shielded in peace. 
Continue to inhale love, exhale gratitude and allow protection to encompass you.
I am shielded in peace








Disclaimer:  The rituals, affirmations, prayers, exercises are based on my experiments.  Some were given under DIVINE Unction others were taught to me.  By all means in your practice, do as Spirit leads you. 

Monday, May 20, 2013

Trans-generational Clearing : Day 1 Self Love


The purpose of the Trans-generational Clearing at it's most basic is removing karmic, generational, family curses/self limiting agreements, habits or conditions. At this time I won't delve into these blocks. The focus of this Five Day Trans-Generational Clearing (TGC) is to begin the process of healing whatever condition that keeps us from being our most succulent selves.

suc·cu·lent (s k y -l nt). adj. 1. Full of juice or sap; juicy. 2. Botany Having thick, fleshy, water-storing leaves or stems. 3. Highly interesting or enjoyable

Most of my sisters want  profound, deep, abiding and loving relationships.  I am included. I have struggled with family, friend, work place, and intimate relationships. Our stories may have different characters and themes but it always comes back to a core reality.  Everyone is working through their own stuff! 

No matter how I looked or from whom I got counsel the answer is always to look within.  What I found when I did was that everything that I felt I loved or disliked about myself were rarely feelings born entirely from myself. Experiences, influences and desires played just as great a role as what my true self was telling me. At times even more.  Have you ever done something against all your better judgement to appease someone or thing outside of yourself? Why?

The Still Small Voice

To begin with I want you to begin to respect your feelings. That still small voice, gut feeling, is our higher self.  Our intuition.  Growing up I was taught  it was that 'check in our spirit'.  That peace without contemplation or effort is that check.  If you are a more cautious person that check may manifest as that sickness in your tummy or as fear. You may be more acutely aware of one or the other.  Whatever that way is.  Learn to be present to witness what you feel.  Respect yourself enough to know you know yourself better than anyone.

Breathe Life

Breathing is the only function that is both voluntary and involuntary.  Our breath is a pure connection to the creation process.  We're told to breathe all the time.  Which on the surface seems foolish because if we're alive then no doubt we are breathing.  In fact the admonishment is to breathe deeply and mindfully.

When we inhale we do so for a count of three. Any length is fine.  I do a leisurely three count in honor of all the Great Trinities in my life.  As you inhale place your hand on your abdomen and feel it rise as it fills with air.  If it does not you will need to monitor this until you learn to in hale correctly.  As you exhale count three to complete release.  The same count in and out is considered rhythmic breathing.  This is foundational so practice.   Great times to practice are when you are feeling something you don't want, when you are confused or feeling stressed and when you need to center yourself.  

Day 1 Practice

Mind: 
Repeat I love you to yourself.
This may not seem like much but if your love tank is hungry for self love it will be more powerful than you expect. 

Body:
Through out the day take the time for deep breathing. 
You can't do it too often.  But be careful not hyperventilate.*** 

Spirit:
Smile
Every chance you get and for no reason.
Smile
while you do your mantra and rhythmic breathing

 Please feel free to share with the group or in a private message to me what you experience as we do this work.




***hyperventilation can be avoided by making sure equal amounts of oxygen and carbon dioxide is exchanged.

 Disclaimer:  The rituals, affirmations, prayers, exercises are based on my experiments.  Some were given under DIVINE Unction others were taught to me.  By all means in your practice, do as Spirit leads you. 

Friday, April 26, 2013

TIME: THIS IS MY EXISTENCE ©

I  woke up ling naked feeling very in my own skin.  Just feeling a sensuousness. My skin felt soft and smooth.  I could smell the sweetness of my hair.  A profound feeling of rightness washed over me.  I was feeling very connected and whole.

It felt as though I was expansive; a certain wideness. 
I was stretching out beyond my skin, seeping into the bedding. 
Dripping further through the floor and into the walls. 
I fluidly washed into everything. 
Until I was pouring over the earth like honey. 
Slow sticking to every inch of land and dissolving into every body of water.

My ecstatic journey was interrupted by an urge to know what time it was.  Leading to concern about what 'accomplishments' I had to conquer today.  My body began to harden.  The connection was broken.  I busied myself. Walking in what seemed to be meaningless circles. I was utterly sad. My body was a stone in which I felt every cell, each w/it's own pain. In that moment I realized THIS IS YOUR EXISTENCE   


It came as a voice like a gentle breeze. 
This Is Your Existence? 
Existence; what I am doing now? 
Existence; how I am living now?  
I sat very still as images passed. Flashing like in a deck of cards being shuffled.  
Some of the images were of things that I had done, some were of things I wanted and others were of me experiencing things that bring me joy. 

After a time the images began to slow down.  
They were of me as statue. 
And me as a ball of light buzzing all around the statue. 
I was there too as the people in my life.
I found myself as circumstances and opportunities.in the shape of blinking fireflies and  the hum of bees. Encompassing all that was me as fear. I was the loud and angry sounds of a hurricane.  
In the noise came a whisper This Is Your Existence!

This Is MY Existence!! I realized I had to release control, participate in creation in order to allow manifestation.  In the business of being human. On this path I have to not only believe in a different paradigm, I have to live it.  Not by trying to effectuate what I want. Nor should I  try to figure out how to capture something. Especially, stop short changing the process by rushing.


TIME!  
I removed my clothing along with my judgement.  And the fear was silenced.
I lay down returning to my earlier state of honey. 
I saw myself again covering the world now flowing as water, infusing every atom.
This time I was Present, this time I was wholly myself, this time I was creation.

The revelation came that it was an anagram: This Is My Existence was TIME. I listen from heart chakra. Time does not exist. It is merely a marker.  I thought of how with the same markers time flies when you're having fun and how it drags when we're uncomfortable.  A mere illusion. We are to release control, participate in the creation process so that we can manifest. In each moment be present. With each moment unfolding to us how we should use our markers.  Then our intentions will have no other option but to be part of us. Living like we are infused with abundance, wholeness, and love creates manifestation.

Dedicated to my dearest friend: 
Marilyn Lester; founder of Sharing the Harvest mobile food bank.
You have no idea how the seed you planted would grow.

Pink Moon/Wolf Moon


Praise to the moon, bright queen of the skies,
Jewel of the black night, the light of our eyes,
Brighter than starlight, whiter than snow,
Look down on us in the darkness below.

If well you should find us then well let us stay,
Be it seven times better when you make your way,
Be it seven times better when we greet the dawn,
So light up our way and keep us from all harm.

Give strength to the weary, give alms to the poor,
To the tainted and needy five senses restore,
Give song to our voices, give sight to our eyes,
To see the sun bow as the new moon shall rise.

Cast your eyes downwards to our dwelling place,
Three times for favour and three times for grace,
Over the dark clouds your face for to see,
To banish misfortune and keep Trinity.

In the name of our Lady, bright maiden of grace,
In the name of the King of the City of Peace,
In the name of our Saviour, who hung on the tree,
All praise to the moon, for eternity.


by John Renbourn