Inside Out Flush: How to Begin

Here's to your new commitment to your primary partner, YOU! Congratulations!

Our goal is wellness. This isn't a quick fix or fad diet. Most weight and health issues have three components. The most evident is the physical indicators. They are important because they let us know that our temple is in distress.  By the time we have pain or realize we've let the pounds pack on - it is after long, progressive neglect and/or abuse. Any quick fix is down right predatory. Including anything big pharma has to offer. Ultimately, you can have dis-ease and never have physical indicators.

Which brings us to the most ignored indicator, the mental. There is much stigma attached to mental health so certainly to mental 'problems'. In my practice if you are feeling unfulfilled and blue I am just as concerned as if you had schizophrenia. In some cases more so. It grieves me to see people existing; moving through the day to day minutia passing time. Especially when the abundant life is attainable and you are worthy!

The oldest indicator and most arguable, the real you, your truest highest self. I call the spirit. The proven most effective for full recovery and healing is examining the inner being so the DIVINE can guide us to wellness and wholeness.

Day 1


Here's the housekeeping. The part that must be done but no one likes to do.  KNOW YOUR NUMBERS! You need to write down your weight, measurements, blood pressure, glucose level, and cholesterol.
It's the most uncomfortable part of this process.  I just keep telling myself they are just indicators. So, I implore you write it down.  It will mean so much when you make them to change. Confirmation of your tenacity and hard work!


Begin the day naming three things you're grateful for. This plants the seed for more blessings to meet you.

Stretch. If you notice this forces you to take deep breaths! Continue to be aware of your breath the rest of the day. Am I filling my lungs? Am I holding my breath? When am I holding my breath?

Be aware of each of your limbs and the way they feel before & after a good stretch. Do you feel relaxed? Is there an increase in your libido during rest of the day?


FOOD GRADE Diatomaceous Earth*(DE) 1tsp in 4-6 ounces of purified/distilled water.

Drink half your body weight in water. Example: 180lbs(weight) /2 = 90 ounces of water daily.

Today make no changes in your diet. Remember weight loss and wellness are by products of a life well lived in a well loved body!

MANTRA

Today I honor myself and the body that I've been blessed with.  

Thank you eyes for vision,

 thank you nose for pleasure of smell,

 thank you mouth that I can speak words of life and love,

 thank you ears that I hear,

thank you arms that can hug and hold,

thank you for legs for your support.

I honor this body temple that tethers me on this Earth.

*Diatomaceous Earth is fossilized microscopic one celled plants known as phytoplankton. It eliminates parasites, detoxification and cleansing of the intestines; leading to  energy, hormonal balance, relief from irritable bowels, constipation, clears skin and improves focus.  DE contains Silica which prevents and reverses osteoporosis, improves skin, prevents wrinkles, strengthens bones, regulates blood pressure, and is beneficial to connective tissues.  Numerous trace minerals  and is an alkalizing agent!

There are many more but for our purposes we intend to focus on the silent killers, stress, exhaustion, blood pressure/sugar and weight issues.

Trans-generational Clearing Day 5: Relinquishment Decree

**Giving honor to my dear teacher and friend Catalena Shepard.  She taught me to love my shit, honor my ancestors and empowered me to do my first clearing.  It is because of her I continue to stand in the gap for past/present/future family members.**

Supplies:

candle(s)                  matches/lighter

paper                             bag/box/container

writing utensil            flowing clean natural water source

Begin with whatever spiritual practice you do before working.  I smudge myself. I root/ground/clear/shield. I then light candles. (See:  http://trance4aum.blogspot.com/2013/05/trans-generational-clearing-day-2-safety.html  for more details)  

**use the power of silence: DO NOT DISCUSS** 

Mind:

Read the below decree silently allowing each phrase to resonate.

Body:

Surrender all angst, stress and former agreements that no longer serve you.

Take a piece of paper and write the decree below in script.  

Sign and date.

Spirit:

Read aloud your hand scripted Relinquishment Decree. 

When read, set on fire, allowing ashes to fall into cup/bag/box.

Give thanks, take ashes to clean flowing stream/beach and release ashes.

Relinquishment Decree

I your name here  call in the name of love my entire ancestral lineage.

I now lovingly release all manner of sexual dysfunction through all generations past, present and future, known and unknown to me.

I bind harmful mental and emotional manipulation, all forms of fear of intimacy, frigidity and the spirit of sexual abuse.

I loose juiciness, healthy lust, sensuality, safety, seduction and passion.

I attract them into my life in healthy ways.

I bind negative body image, fear of abandonment, excessive rebellion and/or 

dependency.

I loose true connection, balance and respect.  I attract only those that

can be co-creators of peace in my world.

I bind any form of unwanted violence between a man and a woman, a woman and a woman or a man and a man.

I loose harmonious conversation and deed. 

I attract spirits that respect my mind, body and spirit to me NOW.

I now free myself from any soul ties pat, present of  future; created by

me or others allowing security, allowing for healthy, loving

relationships with my primary partner (self) and others.

I allow myself to be open.

I allow myself to receive.

 I am appreciative.

I am without judgement.

Disclaimer:  The rituals, affirmations, prayers, exercises are based on my experiments.  Some were given under DIVINE Unction others were taught to me.  By all means in your practice, do as Spirit leads you. 

Trans-generational Clearing: Day 2 Safety

The first stop on this journey to our succulent wombin is preparing a space of safety.  Many of us have blocks that keep us from being vulnerable and having intimacy. Our past experiences have formed agreements; like all men are dogs.  For me I was told 'You're not the marrying kind'.  I didn't know specifically what that meant but I knew enough to make me feel a sense of inadequacy. There began my search for understanding about relationships, intimacy and sex.

If you examine past negative relationship experiences you'll discover in most cases that a boundary was breached that caused the discord.  This breach isn't limited to infidelity either.  If you were expecting your significant other (s/o) to assist in household duties and they are messy, that is a breach.  Even if the agreement wasn't established it still seems like a betrayal. If we talk about it, establish boundaries, with patience and kindness it creates safety. Even with my little pup Therman Russell Obama of the DC Obamas;

when I leave him I look him in the eyes and say, "I will be gone for a couple of hours. I will be back for you and you will be safe." It's a great comfort to both of us. We both move forward feeling safe and secure.

This is what you are establishing for yourself, a place of  safety.  

Boundaries

Boundaries are very subjective. What feels good or bad and what's a turn on or off - is fluid from person to person and experience to experience.  So, it's fine to amend these boundaries as need be.  We must be able to express these boundaries and feel comfort in knowing they will be respected.

We'll continue with more boundary dialogue as we go. For now, let's just be aware of times we felt completely safe and free.  Then about times when we felt our boundaries weren't respected.  This violation could be from any type of relationship.  It doesn't need to be anything major either.  I went away for the Summer. I had a beautiful doll with jointed wrists. I left her behind for her safety, because I knew I would be with mostly boys. While I was away a female cousin snapped Taylor's (doll's name) hand off!  A boundary was crossed and for years later I kept a close eye on my belongings.  I became afraid to loan things and distrusting causing me to be stingy with things I cared for.  In hind sight it seems so petty but not so.  We are who we are because of our experiences  They mold us into reflections of the way we see the world and the way it's treated us.  If I had been honest and talked about my feelings <sad,disappointment,loss> regardless about what I perceived others would think or what they actually would think I would have nipped these self limiting agreement before it ended where it did. Which was until recently, me being unable to keep things that were flawed. It was more about my feelings about myself than the item's lack of perfection.

We each have a right to want boundaries, express them and demand that they be respected.

Intentions

In sacred work we create boundaries by setting intentions and by rooting, grounding, centering and shielding. When you set intentions you are stating clearly and briefly what you hope to attain. Like boundaries your intention is personal.  Just remember to be as clear as possible. If you write them , write them in script as it makes each letter a powerful glyph.

Rooting/Grounding/Centering/Shielding

To expand on our breath work we want to shift our energy.  Grounding and rooting are terms that are seen as the same thing and often one or the other is used by itself.  I use both.  As I do rhythmic breath I visualize and sense the energy coming down from Divine Love into my crown chakra at the top of my head.  It is a white light that travels down each chakra then splits, traveling down each leg.  When the energy reaches my feet it creates capillaries of light that anchor me, root me to Gaia, mother Earth.  I feel her strength and stability under my feet.  I feel stable because the capillaries are solid roots she holds onto.  I won't fall.

I inhale a deep cleansing breath and release it in a slow deliberate exhale.  This time the Light of Love doesn't go down each leg.  It stays in my root chakra, in my pelvis.  This is where sexual energy is housed.  This powerful energy can blow a circuit if you're not careful. That is why this visualization is what I call grounding. I see lightning leaving my body between my legs and contacting the ground.

Inhale again and I visualize and feel myself floating off the ground like a balloon.  I have nothing to fear, the chords from my rooting and grounding keeps me tethered to terra firma and so I just enjoy the gentle sway of the breeze from the sky. I call this being centered. We are in the ether between land and sky.

This energy/Divine light/Love is traveling through my chakras I see myself floating. Kept from floating away by the roots under my feet and the the arc that is grounding me. I begin to see the energy cycling back up through my chakras now and like a great fountain spraying out of the top of my head.  This great white light sprays around me creating a permeable bubble.  This bubble is strong and nothing may enter unless I choose to reach out and pull it inside with me.  I am safe.

Day 2 Practice

Mind:

Follow my visualizations above or create your own. The point is to feel safe. In biblical terms it's

called a "hedge of protection".  I often place a hedge up too. Especially when someone I care

about that has asked for my assistance. I visualize a wide, tall, thickly grown hedge like one found in a maze.

Body:

Stretch with your hands way over your head. Get on the tips of your toes as you reach for the sky

As you visualize your breath work focus on feeling the energy flowing through your body. It may feel like a warm liquid or electrical heat.  See and feel as it travel to Earth and back up to creating your bubble.

Spirit:

On the inhale as you see and feel the energy leaving your feet creating roots say,

I am rooted in love.

On next inhale see and feel energy leaving root chakra connecting to Earth say,

I am grounded in love.

Exhale feel and see energy as a flowing current that pushes you into the sky. Say,

I am centered in gratitude.

Exhale feel and see yourself come to a place of floating. Repeat,

I am centered in gratitude.

Inhale love. Exhale gratitude. Do this until you feel the energy flowing out of your hear. Say,

I am shielded in peace. 

Continue to inhale love, exhale gratitude and allow protection to encompass you.

I am shielded in peace

Disclaimer:  The rituals, affirmations, prayers, exercises are based on my experiments.  Some were given under DIVINE Unction others were taught to me.  By all means in your practice, do as Spirit leads you. 

Trans-generational Clearing : Day 1 Self Love

The purpose of the Trans-generational Clearing at it's most basic is removing karmic, generational, family curses/self limiting agreements, habits or conditions. At this time I won't delve into these blocks. The focus of this Five Day Trans-Generational Clearing (TGC) is to begin the process of healing whatever condition that keeps us from being our most succulent selves.

suc·cu·lent (s k y -l nt). adj. 1. Full of juice or sap; juicy. 2. Botany Having thick, fleshy, water-storing leaves or stems. 3. Highly interesting or enjoyable

Most of my sisters want  profound, deep, abiding and loving relationships.  I am included. I have struggled with family, friend, work place, and intimate relationships. Our stories may have different characters and themes but it always comes back to a core reality.  Everyone is working through their own stuff! 

No matter how I looked or from whom I got counsel the answer is always to look within.  What I found when I did was that everything that I felt I loved or disliked about myself were rarely feelings born entirely from myself. Experiences, influences and desires played just as great a role as what my true self was telling me. At times even more.  Have you ever done something against all your better judgement to appease someone or thing outside of yourself? Why?

The Still Small Voice

To begin with I want you to begin to respect your feelings. That still small voice, gut feeling, is our higher self.  Our intuition.  Growing up I was taught  it was that 'check in our spirit'.  That peace without contemplation or effort is that check.  If you are a more cautious person that check may manifest as that sickness in your tummy or as fear. You may be more acutely aware of one or the other.  Whatever that way is.  Learn to be present to witness what you feel.  Respect yourself enough to know you know yourself better than anyone.

Breathe Life

Breathing is the only function that is both voluntary and involuntary.  Our breath is a pure connection to the creation process.  We're told to breathe all the time.  Which on the surface seems foolish because if we're alive then no doubt we are breathing.  In fact the admonishment is to breathe deeply and mindfully.

When we inhale we do so for a count of three. Any length is fine.  I do a leisurely three count in honor of all the Great Trinities in my life.  As you inhale place your hand on your abdomen and feel it rise as it fills with air.  If it does not you will need to monitor this until you learn to in hale correctly.  As you exhale count three to complete release.  The same count in and out is considered rhythmic breathing.  This is foundational so practice.   Great times to practice are when you are feeling something you don't want, when you are confused or feeling stressed and when you need to center yourself.  

Day 1 Practice

Mind: 

Repeat I love you to yourself.

This may not seem like much but if your love tank is hungry for self love it will be more powerful than you expect. 

Body:

Through out the day take the time for deep breathing. 

You can't do it too often.  But be careful not hyperventilate.*** 

Spirit:

Smile

Every chance you get and for no reason.

Smile

while you do your mantra and rhythmic breathing

 Please feel free to share with the group or in a private message to me what you experience as we do this work.

***hyperventilation can be avoided by making sure equal amounts of oxygen and carbon dioxide is exchanged.

 Disclaimer:  The rituals, affirmations, prayers, exercises are based on my experiments.  Some were given under DIVINE Unction others were taught to me.  By all means in your practice, do as Spirit leads you. 

TIME: THIS IS MY EXISTENCE ©

I  woke up ling naked feeling very in my own skin.  Just feeling a sensuousness. My skin felt soft and smooth.  I could smell the sweetness of my hair.  A profound feeling of rightness washed over me.  I was feeling very connected and whole.

It felt as though I was expansive; a certain wideness. 

I was stretching out beyond my skin, seeping into the bedding. 

Dripping further through the floor and into the walls. 

I fluidly washed into everything. 

Until I was pouring over the earth like honey. 

Slow sticking to every inch of land and dissolving into every body of water.

My ecstatic journey was interrupted by an urge to know what time it was.  Leading to concern about what 'accomplishments' I had to conquer today.  My body began to harden.  The connection was broken.  I busied myself. Walking in what seemed to be meaningless circles. I was utterly sad. My body was a stone in which I felt every cell, each w/it's own pain. In that moment I realized THIS IS YOUR EXISTENCE   

It came as a voice like a gentle breeze. 

This Is Your Existence? 

Existence; what I am doing now? 

Existence; how I am living now?  

I sat very still as images passed. Flashing like in a deck of cards being shuffled.  

Some of the images were of things that I had done, some were of things I wanted and others were of me experiencing things that bring me joy. 

After a time the images began to slow down.  

They were of me as statue. 

And me as a ball of light buzzing all around the statue. 

I was there too as the people in my life.

I found myself as circumstances and opportunities.in the shape of blinking fireflies and  the hum of bees. Encompassing all that was me as fear. I was the loud and angry sounds of a hurricane.  

In the noise came a whisper This Is Your Existence!

This Is MY Existence!! I realized I had to release control, participate in creation in order to allow manifestation.  In the business of being human. On this path I have to not only believe in a different paradigm, I have to live it.  Not by trying to effectuate what I want. Nor should I  try to figure out how to capture something. Especially, stop short changing the process by rushing.

TIME!  

I removed my clothing along with my judgement.  And the fear was silenced.

I lay down returning to my earlier state of honey. 

I saw myself again covering the world now flowing as water, infusing every atom.

This time I was Present, this time I was wholly myself, this time I was creation.

The revelation came that it was an anagram: This Is My Existence was TIME. I listen from heart chakra. Time does not exist. It is merely a marker.  I thought of how with the same markers time flies when you're having fun and how it drags when we're uncomfortable.  A mere illusion. We are to release control, participate in the creation process so that we can manifest. In each moment be present. With each moment unfolding to us how we should use our markers.  Then our intentions will have no other option but to be part of us. Living like we are infused with abundance, wholeness, and love creates manifestation.

Dedicated to my dearest friend: 

Marilyn Lester; founder of Sharing the Harvest mobile food bank.

You have no idea how the seed you planted would grow.

http://sharingtheharvestfoodbank.com/

Pink Moon/Wolf Moon

Praise to the moon, bright queen of the skies,

Jewel of the black night, the light of our eyes,

Brighter than starlight, whiter than snow,

Look down on us in the darkness below.

If well you should find us then well let us stay,

Be it seven times better when you make your way,

Be it seven times better when we greet the dawn,

So light up our way and keep us from all harm.

Give strength to the weary, give alms to the poor,

To the tainted and needy five senses restore,

Give song to our voices, give sight to our eyes,

To see the sun bow as the new moon shall rise.

Cast your eyes downwards to our dwelling place,

Three times for favour and three times for grace,

Over the dark clouds your face for to see,

To banish misfortune and keep Trinity.

In the name of our Lady, bright maiden of grace,

In the name of the King of the City of Peace,

In the name of our Saviour, who hung on the tree,

All praise to the moon, for eternity.

by John Renbourn