INCIDENT *share your stories, add to the dialogue please

I by no means suggest that there is a single demographic that has NOT experienced racism, sexism, ageism or any number of other isms. When we are too emotional to speak respectfully, too closed to have empathy, too hurt to be accepting of a new way of being- - no matter how distasteful it may be we have to acknowledge it is happening widespread and across the board. 

The most upsetting thing is if they allow it to happen to their children they'll allow it to happen to other  children. They are all our children.

In my attempts to pour light over the shock I needed to have real talk about what has happened so that we can start creating a better way.  This case is about child abuse, stalking laws, stand your ground, gun legislature, where should state and federal laws cross, race relations, vigilantism and profiling. All areas where you need to be a bad guy to either be protected or avoid prosecution.

and I mean it from the bottom of my hearrrrrrrt 

to tune of I Just Called to Say I love You in my best Stevie Wonder

My mother's voice distant, getting louder like floating on a breeze.  The sound of my bedroom door being flung open roused me out of my slumber.  I was excited to know I would be having use of the family car! I was 16 with very protective parents.  This opportunity was to pick up my older sister from the local grocery store.  Her shift ended after the store closed and her nightly duties completed to her supervisors approval.  This evening it was some time before 11pm.

This was actually early for her.  I threw on jeans under my gown. It was warm with a clear starry sky.  I wrapped a sweatshirt around my shoulders and turned the car off.  The 7 minute drive was too quick and I was considering circling the block. Until I heard my sister's voice in my mind, "Where da shit you been, I already told yo ass don't have me waitin!"  I thought better of trying to get her to let us take the long way home.

I entered the store like I had literally hundreds of times before. One of the cashiers that knew us told me she was in the back clocking out.We talked about the upcoming game and how one of my favorite snacks was on sale.  After a few minutes I headed in the direction of my bedtime snack.  Cakes supplies were on the back side of the toy isle. As I walked down I noticed a cheap grocery store plastic figurine laying on the floor.  I instinctively picked it up and sat it on the toy shelf.  I continued to the butterscotch morsels. Grabbed a bag and turned to head back to the register already knowing it's not wise to make Tista wait.

I was approaching the counter when I noticed an odd look on her face. I turned to look where she was looking and saw a man running towards me. I knew who he was. He should've known who I was. I just knew I was being attacked. My reaction was to retreat as I turned to run away he grabbed me yelling, 'Whadya hide in your pants?'  He went on to say he saw me pick up something on isle whatever. Before I could respond he grabbed my gown and lifted it up to my breasts. In the front of the store, with witnesses, before closing; one of the owners of the store exposed my body, questioned me, cursed at me and accused me of stealing something I wouldn't want to steal even if I didn't have the $1.99 to buy it.

All I can say is I was given a written apology.  I don't remember his words, the message I will never forget;
you be it your femaleness, your blackness or both don't warrant basic respect and courtesy.

Nubian Spirit (Nubian/Kemetic Spirituality) pt2

Nubian Spirit (Nubian/Kemetic Spirituality) pt1

Trans-generational Clearing Day 5: Relinquishment Decree

**Giving honor to my dear teacher and friend Catalena Shepard.  She taught me to love my shit, honor my ancestors and empowered me to do my first clearing.  It is because of her I continue to stand in the gap for past/present/future family members.**

Supplies:

candle(s)                  matches/lighter

paper                             bag/box/container

writing utensil            flowing clean natural water source

Begin with whatever spiritual practice you do before working.  I smudge myself. I root/ground/clear/shield. I then light candles. (See:  http://trance4aum.blogspot.com/2013/05/trans-generational-clearing-day-2-safety.html  for more details)  

**use the power of silence: DO NOT DISCUSS** 

Mind:

Read the below decree silently allowing each phrase to resonate.

Body:

Surrender all angst, stress and former agreements that no longer serve you.

Take a piece of paper and write the decree below in script.  

Sign and date.

Spirit:

Read aloud your hand scripted Relinquishment Decree. 

When read, set on fire, allowing ashes to fall into cup/bag/box.

Give thanks, take ashes to clean flowing stream/beach and release ashes.

Relinquishment Decree

I your name here  call in the name of love my entire ancestral lineage.

I now lovingly release all manner of sexual dysfunction through all generations past, present and future, known and unknown to me.

I bind harmful mental and emotional manipulation, all forms of fear of intimacy, frigidity and the spirit of sexual abuse.

I loose juiciness, healthy lust, sensuality, safety, seduction and passion.

I attract them into my life in healthy ways.

I bind negative body image, fear of abandonment, excessive rebellion and/or 

dependency.

I loose true connection, balance and respect.  I attract only those that

can be co-creators of peace in my world.

I bind any form of unwanted violence between a man and a woman, a woman and a woman or a man and a man.

I loose harmonious conversation and deed. 

I attract spirits that respect my mind, body and spirit to me NOW.

I now free myself from any soul ties pat, present of  future; created by

me or others allowing security, allowing for healthy, loving

relationships with my primary partner (self) and others.

I allow myself to be open.

I allow myself to receive.

 I am appreciative.

I am without judgement.

Disclaimer:  The rituals, affirmations, prayers, exercises are based on my experiments.  Some were given under DIVINE Unction others were taught to me.  By all means in your practice, do as Spirit leads you. 

Trans-Generational Clearing Day 4: Surrender

surrender v. 

To relinquish possession or control of to another because of demand or compulsion.

To give up in favor of another.

Surrender is an important part of your healing and the juiciness of your future erotic growth.  Many women have difficult or no orgasms.  There is a direct correlation to what goes on in the brain, our most powerful sexual tool, and sexual gratification.  

We begin by surrendering things that would impede our minds.  It's far more challenging to NOT think unhealthy thoughts than it is to allow love and gratitude free reign.  Some of us have a lack of body acceptance.  Others have family baggage. There are many stressors that we wrestle with to no fruitful end.  Those things not only snuff our libidos but it manifests in all kinds of physical maladies.

Mind:

Allow each body discontent, self limiting habit or source of discord.  Don't force it. Just allow.

As they arise know that your desire is to love. within this love is the ability to create.  As our part in co-creating, even things we wish to avoid, we must surrender. 

Body:

As they flow in, allow them for two breathes and on the exhale surrender it.

Feel it melt and drip off of you into the Earth.

Spirit:

Meditation

I am who I am.

I am that I am.

I move in complete cooperation with harmonious vibration

I visibly witness favor.

I operate as a clear authentic vessel.

I relinquish all that no longer serves me.

I embrace and become all I will to be.

Disclaimer:  The rituals, affirmations, prayers, exercises are based on my experiments.  Some were given under DIVINE Unction others were taught to me.  By all means in your practice, do as Spirit leads you. 

Trans-generational Clearing Day 3: Gratitude

Mind: 

Give thanks to each body part, individually.

Say, "Thank you hair." (or scalp for folicly challenged)

Pause to feel being both the giver and receiver.

Body: 

Stretch with your hands way over your head. Get on the tips of your toes as you reach for the sky

As you visualize your breath work focus on feeling the energy flowing through your body. Bring your arms down slowly. As you bring them down - with toes pointing out bend your knees to a squat.  Feel your pelvis open up.  Feel exchange Earth energy for that which flows from the most sacred place, Repeat for desired length. 

Spirit:

Today is a day for gratitude. Surrender to the knowing that everything is as it should be. Go on a gratitude frenzy! See how many times and ways you can say, "Thank you."

Disclaimer:  The rituals, affirmations, prayers, exercises are based on my experiments.  Some were given under DIVINE Unction others were taught to me.  By all means in your practice, do as Spirit leads you. 

Trans-generational Clearing: Day 2 Safety

The first stop on this journey to our succulent wombin is preparing a space of safety.  Many of us have blocks that keep us from being vulnerable and having intimacy. Our past experiences have formed agreements; like all men are dogs.  For me I was told 'You're not the marrying kind'.  I didn't know specifically what that meant but I knew enough to make me feel a sense of inadequacy. There began my search for understanding about relationships, intimacy and sex.

If you examine past negative relationship experiences you'll discover in most cases that a boundary was breached that caused the discord.  This breach isn't limited to infidelity either.  If you were expecting your significant other (s/o) to assist in household duties and they are messy, that is a breach.  Even if the agreement wasn't established it still seems like a betrayal. If we talk about it, establish boundaries, with patience and kindness it creates safety. Even with my little pup Therman Russell Obama of the DC Obamas;

when I leave him I look him in the eyes and say, "I will be gone for a couple of hours. I will be back for you and you will be safe." It's a great comfort to both of us. We both move forward feeling safe and secure.

This is what you are establishing for yourself, a place of  safety.  

Boundaries

Boundaries are very subjective. What feels good or bad and what's a turn on or off - is fluid from person to person and experience to experience.  So, it's fine to amend these boundaries as need be.  We must be able to express these boundaries and feel comfort in knowing they will be respected.

We'll continue with more boundary dialogue as we go. For now, let's just be aware of times we felt completely safe and free.  Then about times when we felt our boundaries weren't respected.  This violation could be from any type of relationship.  It doesn't need to be anything major either.  I went away for the Summer. I had a beautiful doll with jointed wrists. I left her behind for her safety, because I knew I would be with mostly boys. While I was away a female cousin snapped Taylor's (doll's name) hand off!  A boundary was crossed and for years later I kept a close eye on my belongings.  I became afraid to loan things and distrusting causing me to be stingy with things I cared for.  In hind sight it seems so petty but not so.  We are who we are because of our experiences  They mold us into reflections of the way we see the world and the way it's treated us.  If I had been honest and talked about my feelings <sad,disappointment,loss> regardless about what I perceived others would think or what they actually would think I would have nipped these self limiting agreement before it ended where it did. Which was until recently, me being unable to keep things that were flawed. It was more about my feelings about myself than the item's lack of perfection.

We each have a right to want boundaries, express them and demand that they be respected.

Intentions

In sacred work we create boundaries by setting intentions and by rooting, grounding, centering and shielding. When you set intentions you are stating clearly and briefly what you hope to attain. Like boundaries your intention is personal.  Just remember to be as clear as possible. If you write them , write them in script as it makes each letter a powerful glyph.

Rooting/Grounding/Centering/Shielding

To expand on our breath work we want to shift our energy.  Grounding and rooting are terms that are seen as the same thing and often one or the other is used by itself.  I use both.  As I do rhythmic breath I visualize and sense the energy coming down from Divine Love into my crown chakra at the top of my head.  It is a white light that travels down each chakra then splits, traveling down each leg.  When the energy reaches my feet it creates capillaries of light that anchor me, root me to Gaia, mother Earth.  I feel her strength and stability under my feet.  I feel stable because the capillaries are solid roots she holds onto.  I won't fall.

I inhale a deep cleansing breath and release it in a slow deliberate exhale.  This time the Light of Love doesn't go down each leg.  It stays in my root chakra, in my pelvis.  This is where sexual energy is housed.  This powerful energy can blow a circuit if you're not careful. That is why this visualization is what I call grounding. I see lightning leaving my body between my legs and contacting the ground.

Inhale again and I visualize and feel myself floating off the ground like a balloon.  I have nothing to fear, the chords from my rooting and grounding keeps me tethered to terra firma and so I just enjoy the gentle sway of the breeze from the sky. I call this being centered. We are in the ether between land and sky.

This energy/Divine light/Love is traveling through my chakras I see myself floating. Kept from floating away by the roots under my feet and the the arc that is grounding me. I begin to see the energy cycling back up through my chakras now and like a great fountain spraying out of the top of my head.  This great white light sprays around me creating a permeable bubble.  This bubble is strong and nothing may enter unless I choose to reach out and pull it inside with me.  I am safe.

Day 2 Practice

Mind:

Follow my visualizations above or create your own. The point is to feel safe. In biblical terms it's

called a "hedge of protection".  I often place a hedge up too. Especially when someone I care

about that has asked for my assistance. I visualize a wide, tall, thickly grown hedge like one found in a maze.

Body:

Stretch with your hands way over your head. Get on the tips of your toes as you reach for the sky

As you visualize your breath work focus on feeling the energy flowing through your body. It may feel like a warm liquid or electrical heat.  See and feel as it travel to Earth and back up to creating your bubble.

Spirit:

On the inhale as you see and feel the energy leaving your feet creating roots say,

I am rooted in love.

On next inhale see and feel energy leaving root chakra connecting to Earth say,

I am grounded in love.

Exhale feel and see energy as a flowing current that pushes you into the sky. Say,

I am centered in gratitude.

Exhale feel and see yourself come to a place of floating. Repeat,

I am centered in gratitude.

Inhale love. Exhale gratitude. Do this until you feel the energy flowing out of your hear. Say,

I am shielded in peace. 

Continue to inhale love, exhale gratitude and allow protection to encompass you.

I am shielded in peace

Disclaimer:  The rituals, affirmations, prayers, exercises are based on my experiments.  Some were given under DIVINE Unction others were taught to me.  By all means in your practice, do as Spirit leads you.